tis is my 1st year celebrate CNY without family :( but anyhow, i've learn different culture on this festive celebration...people from china will normally make dumpling for their reunion dinner...in chinese we called it 'kao zi' ...i went to one of my fren's hse and make da dumpling ...it's kinda fun ...i really enjoy it...13:35

today went to watch alien vs predator...not wat i've expected...02:20

today i've kinda relax working in da cloakroom...got tips somemore..not much though £5 plus...not too bad ya...wish i can work in da cloakroom each time working in jongleurs :P easy job...today i had my lunch at a chinese restaurant named golden bowl at fawcett road...da food not too bad especially her house specialty chicken...yummy yummy!! yeah..tomoro day off till monday !!! but gotta work again on tue...04:50

oh shit!! i was shocked by the mark tat i've got in my coursework...we've got only 37 out of 100 on da personal finance coursework....damnit...i think need to re-take da course...gosh :( hate coursework!!! am i getting da wrong coursemate...sigh..i'm seriously work hard on my part...but not them...how can they work on a coursework over a nite...frankly speaking ...they juz copied da lecture material word by word...so i think 37% already more than expect...i rather do it all by myself at least i wont need to re-take :( but it's too late..can't blame anyone now...yday was my 1st day working in jongleurs (comedy club in gunwharf quays) i was so mad wit 1 of da part-time staff whom juz like wat i'm doing...she keep on ordering me to do tis and tat...damn..i know who's da boss..ok? so fucking tired...carrying all those glasses and need to go through da damn crowd...why are those fuxking clubbers juz throw their galsses n bottles on da floor??? yday seriously wanna tell da boss i'm gonna QUIT!!! but we can't gib up so easily la...we've gotta hv faith on ourselve...isn't right? later need to work again ...sigh 16:12

初秋的天,冰冷的夜
回憶慢慢襲來
真心的愛就像落葉
為何卻要分開

灰色的天獨自彷徨
城市的老地方
真的孤單走過憂傷
心碎還要逞強

想為你披件外衣
天涼要愛惜自己
沒有人比我更疼你
告訴你在每個
想你的夜裏
我哭的好無力

就讓秋風帶走我的思念
帶走我的淚
我還一直靜靜守候在
相約的地點

求求老天淋濕我的雙眼
冰凍我的心
讓我不再苦苦奢求你還
回來我身邊

nice lyrics...01:57

finally no more exam and get ready for nex semester!!feel so relieved now...can start my drama series marathon!!! WAR-IN-LAW II...funny drama..got my interview reschedule on 5th february ...hope da interview can go successfully...can't wait!! 01:10

i'm surprise when i was noticed to go for an interview through webcam...i'm actually applying a work placement in a resort chain in Virginia,US...yesterday was da day which i will meet up wit the interviewer...i was all ready wit my proper attire and i was actually make-up to give her my very best apperance that i could...somehow or rather she can't make it and the interview have to cancel...sigh...anyway, will wait for her to arrange another interview then...hope will able to get tis job...da resort is damn fabulous...nice beach with crystal clear water...sometimes i wondered..am i da one u really missing at? sometimes u can show no care at all but sometimes u totally change to a different person wit da way u talk to me...i'm wondering ...do u really care how i feel? how can u always juz leave me alone whenever u want ...and together whenever u want too....i'm tired and miserable...sometimes u may see me strong but i can tell u is only da outside me...inside of me, i'm completely weak juz like other girls whom need care and protection...tonite i had a scrumptious dinner wit wei cing and her coursemate...we had dinner at a south america steak house named Rancho in Southsea...da food taste goods...tmr is my last paper ...hooray!!! 21:41

seriously damn bored wit my nex door neighbour...because of them, we had to meet up wit the council mediator...lots of hassle...been scheduling the time in order for all of us to meet up...finally, all da things had sort out and we come to an agreement not to take shower after 11pm...and guess wat...one of my housemate went shower on last nite at half pass 12 and BANG ...da neighbour e-mailed my landlord about the late shower...when all tis matter come up..i'm da 1st person da landlord look for...asking me all sort of questions...so, he n his wife came to da house on da evening and stick few notes on every corner of da wall 'PLS SHUT THE ROOM DOOR QUIETLY'...da funniest note on the bathroom door 'PLS NO SHOWER AFTER 11PM (KEEING OUR PROMISE)' ...wat a joke and all written in chinese..which i don't understand at all...hahaha...23:32

finally i get to go library to do my revision...it's been awhile though...i missed those day where i get to go library to do my seminar work ...nowadays it's hard to get a space in da library...most of the student were there early in da morning to start their revision...by da time i go, it's full :( from today onwards, i have to study really hard...i don't want to RE-SIT for another paper!!! friday used to be our grocery shopping day but since i started my job, we have to go on saturday to do our shopping...we have not replenish our food for 2 weeks ...so today both of us have to like carry 10 kgs bag and walk for 1.5 miles...pity us...no choice ...hv to eat to survive!! 20:12 wish u were here by my side...feel like hugging u ...kissing u ...i know i can't ...i missing u dearly ...wish u know tat u mean alot to me...no matter where were u ...u will always be inside my heart forever...21:24

tis £100 will haunted me for my whole life!!! today my boss let me handle the counter alone...it's totally alrite for me but when come to closing time the cash was short of £100...scared me to death ...i'm so careless cuz i forgotten my boss took da cash earlier on ...damn..i'm still f**king in shock now!!! how am i suppose to dig out da cash if it's REALLY short...gosh..sigh...my CNY london trip gotta cancel :( work!!! boss doesn't let me take off...sad ...ruin all my plan ...no choice ...$$ more important to me now!! 01:27

today i'm so happy !!! i feel flattered by her words :P it's just my 2nd day and i got compliment from the ex-staff...am i tat lucky gal?? i think i am...i was so afraid i can't manage this job but it seems alrite now...feel so relieved ...i love my boss's cooking !!! finally find a real malaysian food...didn't i forget to tell u guys tat i have malaysian boss...feel like i'm back home :P especially the CURRY...super duper yummy ...anyone of u wanna try my boss's cooking...pls do call 02392 865888 and no worries it will be free delivery for order above £7 :P and u guys can pay by credit card* n debit card* as well...isn't awesome!!! (*applicable for £10 and above order :P ) 01:17

today it's my first day going to work in UK...it was a great experience...after been working as a OL for the past 6 yrs...i am back to student life...i don't think my dear friend will able to guess wat job i'll be doing rite now...office job?? yea...u are so wrong!!! i'm working in a counter for chinese take-away...sounds easy huh??? i have to like memorise hundred of numbers (it's meant for their menu) luckily today it's not a busy day in da restaurant..or else i'm DEATH!!! lemme share my working experience ya..there's a guy called up to order delivery..damn...tis guy has his own accent n it seems like he's mumbling to himself..which mean i can hardly hear wat he's talking...i were like keep on saying 'sorry sir...could u pls say it again??' guess wat..i think he feel da same way as i do ...juz so damn PISSED OFF ..he slammed down my phone!!! wtf how can someone hear a person mumbled over da phone...tis is so ridiculous...i've told my boss bout tis...she ask me to call him up and re-take da order ...so without any hesitation ...i have to call him back...n speak politely wit him ...n wat he can do at least ..speak properly n place his damn order..but he choose to slam down my phone again....arrgghhhh...wat da hell ...nice experience though...sigh...i need $$$ ...i was juz mentioning my 1st part time job ...i had another part time job as a bar staff in a comedy club ...u guys must be thinking i'm crazy ya...i'll be f**king tired  guess..not sure how long i can take tis...but i'll try really hard on tis...gonna start da 2nd job on next fri...oh gosh...luckily after my exam...so i can really work n party at da same time!!! yeah!!! it's getting late here..sleep time!! 01:14

damn...i think i have to re-sit this damn paper!!! wat da hell...i was expecting more calculation than theory..but it comes out THEORY more than calculation...am i taking da rite PAPER??? curious!!! anyway, it's already done..can't do much now...juz trying to relax and get ready for the coming paper...i was so upset ...n guess wat ...went to cinema n watch BEE movie...funny rite? it's an animated movie...it's fun though...hope da nex paper will do well then ...pray hard!!!

sometimes i wondered...why is there love? do love means alot to us? or perhaps to me? i'm not sure wat exactly i want out of love..but i do realize when you love tat person...u will keep on think of da someone all da time...sometimes u will wonder is tat someone been thinking of u too?? am i wasting time? tomoro have to sit for a tough paper...damn ...kinda panic...it's been awhile for me to sit in an exam hall...hope everything goes well...